I have had quite an interesting week since starting to read “This I Know” by Susannah Conway.
This book more than anything else I have read has touched me emotionally and deep into my core. A lot has happened over the last 7 years and instead of dealing with each episode as it arose, I had to push the feelings down deeply in order to deal life, so that I did not fall under.
Now I have realised that in order to exorcise my demons I have to work through the feelings that are having a negative impact on my life. Most of my life I have felt unworthy of happiness which has been compounded by the relationships I have had which have been of a destructive nature confirming that I do not deserve to be happy. So I want to change that, I don’t want to be carrying this around with my like a stone around my neck, it is too hard to keep it all hidden and all I am doing is hurting myself.
I spent a glorious morning art journaling, writing in my journal, reading poetry and May Sarton and for the first time in many years I felt a shift in my soul, like the weight moved, lifted just for a short time while I listened to my feelings and sat in the moment hearing my own voice while I read aloud.
The poem I chose to read was If by Rudyard Kipling moving and inspirational, why don’t you try with one that speaks to you.
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